hello Monday!

selamat hari seninnn!!

udah hari senin lagi aja nih.

hari baru, minggu baru, tanggal baru.

and am still lying on my bed.

i don't feel well nih.

menggigil dan bersin bersin.

kayanya efek sering mandi malem dan aktif di malam hari udh kerasa.

yang sialnya, kambuhnya di saat lagi hectic begini.

minggu ini bakalan sangat tough....

besok bakalan ke medan buat meeting tp bahan meeting belom aku siapin, yasalam.....

banyak yg mau diselesaikan but i have no enthusiast to get them done.

akibat terlalu ngebawa mood ya gini huff (pdhl ni masi selaw ngetiknya dan udah jam setengah delapan).

but anw, a lil story for this morning.

jaketnya masih sama aku hahaha and i want to extend borrowing his buat ke medan.

yha gmna yhaaa rasanya nyaman aja gitu dipake pake tidur.

but the reason why i love wearing this jacket is,

this jacket was the jacket he wore when he picked me up for the very very first time and the only one wkwk.

i still remember clearly the day i saw him from afar and i felt so butterfly-ing at that time.

it's been sooooo soooo long since the day someone picked me up and ya he's what i'm waiting (oke nathan perna juga, cuma exceptional ya wkwk).

tapi ya dikarenakan aku anaknya appreciating every little thing as a memory,
yaaa here i am, hugging his jacket and still remembering the short time we spent.
kadang bertanya tanya juga, he quit because he wants it or because he knows we cant be together.
cuma kan, balik lagi sama case yg sebelumnya,
we already knew it and we want to try.
hhh.....

if keeping all these things will be better,
so let me keep it for myself.
having you beside me as a friend,
talking to you with nothing to be worried,
laughing with you over so many things,
is more than enough.
toh kita memang ga bisa bareng kan?
but still, 
i'm missing the touch of your attention to me.
stupid me.
i know he did it to every girl out there.
look for what he needs and left the girl if he thinks they didn't suit to each other.
but ya, still am here, hugging his jacket.
remembering the simple yet memorable things to me :')

and since i'll be away from here for a whole week,
sometimes i wish i could replace her.
spending our time, just the two of us.
not the three of us, not only as a listener.
but also as your partner to talk about everythinggg.
cuma ya bisa apa, i'll always stand as her shadow hehe.
eh udah jam segini aja.
i think i have to get ready.
but omgggg, ga enak sekali badan ini rasanya 😥😢