banana top!

guess where i am now? 

i'm in one hospital, waiting for someone.
sambil nyemilin banana top yang lagi happening hahaha.
segitu pengen nyobanya sampe disempetin beli sebelum kesini.

almost 9 pm and i'm still here waiting for someone who's inside one room of this hospital while hugging this jacket.

kita mau barengan ke siantar. 

you know who's that person right?

sebenernya kondisinya lagi kurang enak sih ini but i can't mention why.

the thing is,

i feel the sadness inside of me.

rasanya juga ga tenang hffft.

btw, udah lama juga ga ketemu dia.

it's been a week.

and the bad news is,

he's already moved to new place.

kos kosan lain.

means........

i can't see him in the morning anymore,

waktu lagi jemur pakaian😂

ada positifnya sih, 

i wish this feeling evaporates faster.
even.... myself still wants to see him every single morning like before.
isn't it sad?
we've been there together for long before, 
until finally we separate.
the time we take to know each other is less than the time we still didn't know each of us.
kaya apa banget ya wkwk tp seriously i'm a bit sad 😖

seeing him isn't as cheerful as always, really affected my mood.
moreover, my swing mood turns worse and worse each day without knowing why.
ini gimana coba nanti di mobil bingung juga mau ngomong apaaah😥

anw aku udh di jalan dr td nih, bahkan udh hampir sampe tebing.
dia ternyata baik baik aja kok.
at least yang keliatan dari luar sih begitu ya.
and i think i don't need to worry anything about him.
and everything turns as usual as before.
and i think everything has over now.
everything between us hehe.
a bit sad, but what should i say.
cause it's the thing that will come sooner or later (but it's too soon btw haha).
hurt to look like fine and act like we didn't have any special thing before.
and see his gf's name on his phone screen, calling him.
yasudahlah ya itu aja yang bisa aku ceritakan.
am too sad to still typing right now.
ditambah, pusing dibuat manusia ini krn bawa mobilnya kenceng kenceng.
bhay!