hello, friend :)

it's been a month, two months or maybe three months.
i don't know for sure.
it's been quite long since we didn't talk to each other.
you know, it's not what i mean.
i'm just too much disappointed and you already let me down for several times.
and you don't know about it, or maybe you don't care?
i don't know.
i think you don't care.
you only care about yourself, your bussiness.
i thought about this for few times recently, and how about you?
have you ever did the same?

have you ever looked for me?
maybe you have ever, but only when you have some things to solve or maybe when you need someone to accompany you to some places :)
am i just a friend who always accompany you wherever you want?

i hate to admit that i'm kinda missing you.
i miss spending my time with you.
hanging out, karaoke, watching movies or only gossiping with you.
haha -_- do you miss me too?
hmm maybe only you need me :)
i hate this circumstances.
i hate being quiet all the time to take some disctance from you.
i just want you to know how it feels without me.
do you still get another friend that understands you all the time?
do you still having friend who be there for you?
i did it as your best friend.
i didn't wanna see you upset.
but how about me?
you used to disappoint me more and more and act like that's okay, 
and didn't even care about my feeling if i was upset or not.
i just wanna ask simple questions after being together for almost 20 years.
so simple :)
am i your best friend? 
am i really in your atmosphere?
or are we too far to get close?