replaced by someone who always time to spend with?

jadi semalem tuh tiba-tiba dapet undangan dari seorang senior di grup alumni TI.

undangan nikah nih ceritanya.

yang bikin agak tercengang tuh ya..

doi nikahnya sama senior kita hahaha

kalo ada cerita lain, senior cewe aku nikah sama dosen cowo, nah ini kebalikannya.

abang itu nikah sama satu satunya dosen cewe yang belum nikah di kampus.

quite surprising, isn't it?

gak begitu lama sih menurut aku mulai dari mereka deket sampe akhirnya nikah.

memang ya ga ada yang bisa menduga-duga jodoh tuh datangnya dari mana.

entah di deket kita atau mungkin belum lahir (HAHAHA!),

lebih muda atau lebih tua dari kita,

sesuku atau engga ama kita (curhat mik?).

but this invitation takes me to around 1.5 years ago.

bisa dibilang, i was one of the witness of their love story.

i wasn't sure about their relationship at that time.

i thought it was kinda cinlok which will vapor sooner or later.

soalnya ya logically, it wasn't looked fit for them.

entah waktu itu hanya dekat sebagai dosen mahasiswa atau emang udah mulai ada rasa rasa gatau juga yakan wkwkwk.

dan yaaa.....

the moment they splash their love at each other,

i was close with someone we called as S.

the man who almost dominated this blog.

kenapa aku bisa ngeliat gimana deketnya mereka, because S was part of the gang of them both.

what i want to talk about is,

it's true "the habits for always being together" with or without conscious will splash particle of love.

the more time you spend with someone, the more you feel pleasant by their presence.

it won't be any matter if you have no relationship with someone.

but how if you have someone who's waiting for you in another side?

kalau hanya sekedar teman yang kebetulan harus sering berhubungan satu sama lain sih gapapa.

how if your position being replaced by the person who-always-have-time-to-be-spent-together?

can you explain how is the feeling?

being betrayed by someone you love and trust so much? :) 

there's no word could explain how painful it feels until you feel it yourself.

no, i don't want to talk about my painful feelings anymore.

it's been more than enough i think, since the beginning i started writing this blog was to pour out my feelings.

lebih tepatnya, my pain, my hard days, my nightmare and so on since he left.

and since i finally discovered,

i was one of the victim of "being replaced by someone-who-always-be-there-to-have-their-time-spent).

and i recognized one thing,

this thing won't happen if only he honored our commitment.

tapi yahh mau gimana, he doesn't deserve my commitment, my sacrifice.

it was hard to accept it, but i should, even it took soooo long to finally take it.

this world spins, so i can't stand in the same position for too long.

furthermore, it's something that will ruin my life slowly.

gak salah sih nyaman dengan orang yang selalu ada disamping kita, not at all.

but it's a mistake if you already have someone in your life.

it's definitely your fault if you let it be.

awalnya mungkin percikannya sedikit, but the more you enjoy it, the bigger it will be.

lah nanti alesannya "ga niat kok buat nyaman atau jatuh cinta, but it just happens".

ya gimanapun juga, as a human, we have our brain to control our heart.

we knew it wrong, so if it turns wrong as well, ya absolutely we're the one and only who made the decision.

respect the commitment,

remember we have someone who's waiting on the other side,

deny the atmosphere.

karena, perasaan itu cepat berubah.

mungkin susah pada awalnya untuk menyangkal perasaan-perasaan nyaman tersebut,

but if you're consistent with your goals, 

that feeling will vanish soon :)

mungkin yang kemarin emang ga bisa bertahan dengan jarak.

but ya as i ever said,

this world spins.

maybe not now, but someday you'll find someone who will always stick with you no matter how many miles you're apart.

you'll find someone who will make it work no matter how many obstacles you'll face.

you'll find someone who will always try to understand how hard your personality is.

you'll find someone whom you will spend the rest of your life with.

sooo......

apapun itu....

I'm happy to hear the good news Bang, Bu!

you two finally reach the finish line.

you two successfully get through all the obstacles.

you two make it work!

congratulation for you two, Happy Wedding! :D

doakan yang disini bisa make it work juga yah hahahaha >.<