my opening May

at about 00.00 i got a bad news,

which successfully made me down and really disappoint me.

same situation like my 5-years-ago.

perfectly same.......

and now i know that i'm living in a cruel world, unfair world and full-of-crime world.

why did i say so?

well....

i just feel what we called "unfair".

haha, nowadays,

having people who can support you in every condition you faced is one of the most trending topic.

you live, you fight, you try and you did your best by your own hard work,

and then?

you were defeated by the people who have a lot of power.

they just..

relax and enjoyed their life and hell yeah, they got what they wanted~

so, is it fair enough?

isn't it an indirect crime?

i think so.

it feels so unfair and i really wanna scream straight to their face "you got it that easy and didn't have any effort to get it. so why do you have to get it? why IT'S YOU?"

i'm just wondering in my mind...

do you feel ashamed?

why do you feel so proud of something that didn't come from what we said "truth" and didn't come from their hard work.

hahaha pity them~

at first i never be in that condition.

now i get it, in my college ;)

it's not only according to me, but also according to some persons that feels like i did.

now i really really get it, a hundred percent understand bout it.

well well well~

i just can say, congratulation to all of you! :)

maybe you really need it, "more needing it" so you used that trick ;)

i am sincere enough for letting it go to some persons like you.

once again congratulation! :D

but one thing, stop acting like you care, like you know how it feels and you so full of symphatetic :)

cause it seems like you're talking bout bullshit and doing bullshit too wkwkwk~

remember,

there are soooooooo many persons that deserves to get it, much more deserve it.

and you?

just a piece of cake :p

you only cheat and getting what you shouldn't have to get, while there are sooooo many more that fighting for it :)

and finally i only could say......

just enjoy it :D

enjoy the-an-inappropriate-thing-you-get! ;;)

i get one lesson of life about this thing.

this world is unfair and cruel, you don't know who are your friends or your rival. you have to fight by yourself and you will get what is best for you. keep praying and always doing your best.

so hmmm....

i'm still fighting for the last chance for this year.

i'm still keep wrestling for this last chance and trying my best.

and so i'm hoping for my best too.

may Jesus in me, blessing all my work and allow me to get it.

Amen :)

and last, 

now i'm on my busy way saving my money, stop being extravagant and buy anything which isn't necessary enough.

i have to really have to seriously downsize.

wish everything goes right >.<