so here i am spending my friday on my bed.
i am now in my room, i mean in medan wkwk.
lagi mager balik ke kenyataan, idk why this laziness attacked me this hard.
also, i have a horror experience which happened on me for the latest 2weeks and it made me scared for being there for now.
kaki masi sakit aja bekas berdiri lebih dari 12 jam make heels hari rabu kemarin omgggg.
like usual, am going to share about smth.
about love life HAHAHA.
so, i have a new friend.
temen yang aku kenal dari dunia maya, taulah apps apaan kan hahaha.
i knew him about a month ago deh kayaknya waktu aku lagi di medan, dan berakhir dengan chat via line.
rasanya asik aja gitu not like the usual new friend of me.
we always had something to talk about and it's not about 'what are you up to', 'already eat or not' or another boring stuffs.
thats the reason i think he's a bit different than another men i knew from the same apps.
i enjoyed our chats, talked bout smth then discussed them.
like..... we suit one another.
bahkan dia sempet buat aku ngerasa dia ga kaya cowo ngasal lainnya.
at least, i found someone who can be my coffee partner (sok anak ngopi btw).
but then smth happened.
the usual thing which always happened :)
entah kenapa tiba2 dia ngilang gt ajaa.
ga seketika ngilang yah, but slowly.
it'a about a month since the first time we got matched.
it took 2 weeks for me to figure him out as a nice person for me to share smth.
but, the latest 2 weeks, he turned to be someone i already estimated before.
he always sent me morning greeting like 'morning mik morning sob', tapi entah kenapa setelah liburannya, he started to change.
sehari sekali sukur2 chat.
sebelumnya tuh, kalo malem lancar chat sampe dia ketiduran.
bahkan sering jg dia ngechat kalo udh lama ga aku bales.
dan yang mengesalkan adalah, he's one of the list of my seen story atauuuuu ngestoryin something.
tapi chat aku, di read pun engga🤣🤣
kalo masi sejam dua jam i can tolerate, tapi kalo udh lebih dari 12 jam bahkan berhari hari, bisa gitu ga read chat?
why dont you just read it?
i wont mad man, i wont.
its much better daripada left my chat being unread and you strolled in my IG feeds.
rasanya ga dihargain hahahaha.
awalnya masih enak bahkan i thought he was a bit different but then he altered into men generally.
kesel? ya.
i cant deny myself for feeling a bit irritated for what he already done.
kalo dibilang, kok baperan banget mik?
thats not my fault for being like this.
the issue was in them.
kok bisa ya being so nice for the beginning then berubah 180 derajat.
as easy as flipping your hand, thats how easy you guys turned yourself from being so nice into someone totally different.
cape rasanya, cape.
its not easy for me to let myself knowing someone new.
kalo dibilang aku ga nyoba, aku nyoba kok.
i try to open myself for someone new.
tapi yg aku dapetin tuh ya gini mulu.
they just come and go as they pleased.
when they were in mood they came, but when weren't they just left as they pleased.
awalnya manis manis but then vanished :)
kaya dapur singgahan ya, didatengin cuma kalo mood hahaha.
gimana aku bisa percaya ada yg berbeda?
he mentioned me he was different, bahkan katanya udh 2tahun single.
tapi ya sama doang kan ahahhaha.
every time i started to think that not everyone is same, the truth revealed ha ha ha.
kadang heran aja, kesalahannya dimana sih? di aku?
kalo emng di aku, just let myself know whats my mistakes.
daripada begini2 aja dan membuatku enegg.
entahlah aku lelah, frekin exhausted.
when i was already enjoyed this loneliness, someone walked in.
when i opened the gate, they disappeared with no footage hehehe.
hhhh terserahlah....
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